dark paradise: 1

I was frustrated, shocked, even tho i knew this was coming, my tears were running down my face silently, my hands were shaking and i couldn't hold my phone to reply to his text, I just admitted to the most important guy in my life that i love him. I'm so stupid! i shouldn't have embarrassed myself, of course he would choose her over me, she's the "girl of his dreams", he always talks about her, his heart skips a beat whenever we see her, and when he finally got her, that's when i decided to open up to him and tell him about how i feel.

Hadeel: there's something i wanted to say ages ago but never really had the courage till now
...: bsm allah what is it?
Hadeel: i know that you're in a relationship with meshael but i have to say this, i like you, I've liked you since the first time i saw you, i like everything about you and i want you to be mine, and mine only.

I closed my phone cause i couldn't handle reading his rejection text, lets go back in time, to the first time i saw him, who knew that guy would mean the world to me?

-Beirut, 2010-


I was so excited about this, i just arrived Lebanon and I was so looking forward to spend the summer here with my bestie, Najla! Its the first time i come here to lebanon but najlas grandparents live here and she always visits them and come back to riyadh with alot of stories to tell so i convinced my parents to go to lebanon, i got to the hotel and i took the quickest shower and wore a black jeans and a striped sleevless blouse, took my mobile, Motorola, it was the coolest back then. Then called najla.

-Calling SoulSister<3-

Hadeel: hiii!
Najla: omg you're finally here! El7amdella 3al slama
Hadeel: allah ysalmik! Yalla mta tmreni?
Najla: el sawag t7t al7en brkb elsyara w baji!
Hadeel: perfect!

Najla is my soul sister, my everything. We've been besties for 11 years, my family became friends with hers, she's an only child, she has that perfect light brown hair, those eyes that would make you fall for her, that smile that would make your heart melt, that body that would make you stop what you're doing and stare at her. I love her more than i love myself, good thing that our families get along too, oh and i'm hadeel, 17 year old teenager that dreams about the day when she runs away from this country, i was born in America, Virginia. I'm tall, wavy black hair, skinny, or at least thats what I've been told cause i hate the way i look, clumsy, awkward, sarcastic, dorky, always makes fun of everything and its not hard to make me laugh. I have only one sister thats younger than me, Abeer. She's 13, we don't have that close sisters relationship, but we're cool! Untouched was blasting in the room and i knew my phone was ringing, it was najla so i hung up and ran to lobby, i saw her car through the glass and when i went out she was screaming out my name and waving at me, people started staring and guys started laughing and flirting, but i didn't care at all, all what i did was running to her and when i hopped into her car, i gave her the biggest hug ever. even tho i saw her yesterday but we were just too happy.

the driver: shu 9baya wen bdkun tro7o?
Najla: ABC!
Hadeel: wshu tha?
Najla: its a mall ya habla
*the driver laughed*
Najla: tara i'm meeting some friends there
Hadeel: meen? juju?
Najla: la juju lisa ma jat! Saud and some other friends, i'm sure you're gonna love them!
Hadeel: hey ya5i mst7ya awal marra a6la3 m3 3yal
Najla: laa ma7a yswoo shai hathuli abra2 mni w mnik, walla bt7beenhum
Hadeel laughing: okay nshouf! *rubbing my tummy* ju3ana bamout
Najla: hum ga3den ystnona b m63m
Hadeel: ba3ad awal marra yshofuni w ba6f7 gdamhum!
Najla: 9adgeni hum 7yswoon ashya2 aswa2 gdamik

for some reason i got so excited to meet those guys, w9alna Abc, it was huge and beautiful, i loved everything about that place, i was following Najla like an idiot, lma w9lna el m63m, ree7t el akl wa9la barra and my stomach was eating itself, ma aklt shai mn akl el 6yara l2nh ysd el nfs allah ykrm el n3ma, kna nstna barra el m63m till a guy came and he smiled when he saw najla, then he hugged her. I was so shy i didnt even look at the guy's face

Najla: haw hadeel! Say hi to turki!
Hadeel hand shaking him: hi
Turki smiling: ahleenn, el7amdella 3al slama tgul li najla enk twk jaya, walla btstanseen hena ma3lek ana bwdek a7la el amakn
Hadeel blushing: allah ysalmk!
Turki: yalla emshu el 3yal ga3den ystnon jwa

I was so shy that i wanted to just run away w as7ab 3ala najla and order from McDonald's, wsh feh McDonald's ymd7una:( d5lna jwa w kan z7ma shwai, lma shfna 6awla kbeera with only 3 guys, so i guessed it was them! The moment they saw us coming, they jumped from their chair to hug Najla, i guess she's so special to them, eh? then they stood there awkwardly staring at me.

Najla: guys this is Hadeel, eli gltlkum 3nha, hathouli Bader, saud, and Mohammd *pointing at them*
Hadeel awkwardly waving: hi!
Bader: ahlann kaifik?
Hadeel: el7amdella w ent?
Bader: el7amdella *sitting on his chair* bs jou3aan mta yji aklna
Najla sitting next to him: 6lbtu bdouna ya 7ywanat!
Mohammed: where are you manners young boy?
*his accent tho<3*
Bader: heee22 ya kalb ent eli jbt lna el menus a9lan!
Turki: 5ala9 ya mbzra, najla and hadeel eesh bt6lbu?

we ordered, our food came before theirs, we made fun of them and they all ate with me, i liked them so much, mn el nou3 eli 3l6oul ymoonun 3aleik bs b7dud, and they were so gentle cause they insisted to pay the bill, then we walked around the mall together and people were giving us the ''ma tst7un 3ala wjehkum?'' looks, Bader and mohammed were acting like 12 year olds, which was very funny, Turki kan zai abouhum that takes care of everyone, which i find VERY attractive, saud was a little shady, ma ytklm ella glel, i guess he was a little shy? i don't really know, at 8PM i was so tired so i told Najla that i'm going to the hotel to get some rest, so she was like "be ready at 9AM i'll pick you up and we'll go to the beach with the rest of the group'' i got excited and butterflies in my stomach. i'm sure we're gonna have fun tomorrow.

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((i'm not encouraging you guys on doing ANYTHING, elg9a a9lan mu 9dgya, w etha kntu mn el nou3 eli tt'2throun mn el g9a, then please stop reading it, ma at7ml a5ith thanb a7ad w ana mtbrya mn eli byswi ay shai mn el g9a))

-the story is 20% true.
-what do you think about the first chapter?
-who do you think the ''guy'' was? Turki, bader, saud or Mohammed?

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